Tantra retreat, kundalini activation, girls approaching me all weekend.

Went to a tantra retreat solo to push myself. Ran my custom the day before. Day two, during kundalini awakening and ritual partner play, I finally let myself fully feel the sexual energy instead of blocking it. The play opened up — biting necks, wrestling, fully alive and present in a way I hadn't been before. Day three, my old abandonment trauma got triggered when I ended up alone during a partner exercise. Instead of leaving, I tried a two-hour meditation. Five minutes in, the pain dissolved and warmth flooded in. I opened my eyes 1 hour 50 minutes later — everyone was sitting around me. After that, everything shifted. Girls started approaching me constantly. By the final exercise, a partner simply said: do whatever you want, just not my underwear. That was the only limit. Key insight: relaxation is almost everything. Don't block your sexual energy — it's a disservice to you and to her. I can now see why, after this weekend, a cold-approach rejection will do nothing to my emotional state.